There is writing here about the hidden cost of always being available, about wanting to be the best meditator in the room and what that desire actually reveals, about why "think positive" is a reliable way to avoid feeling the things that actually need feeling. They are meant to be useful, not soothing. What you actually find when you look is usually more interesting, and more workable, than the version you've been performing. I write about them anyway, starting with my own.