About
I'm not here to be your guru.
Good thing, too — I don't have the wardrobe for it. No mountain retreat. Just a bicycle, a meditation cushion that's seen better days, and nearly thirty years of notes from trying to figure this out.
Am I enlightened? I don't know, experience tells me it's not important, nor is it the goal of life. I'm not done learning. But I've been walking this path long enough to have found a few things worth sharing — and long enough to know the difference between what actually helps and what just sounds impressive.
The Short Version
I spent seven years in my twenties inside what turned out to be a cult-like organization. I didn't know it at the time—I was young, hungry for meaning, and someone seemed to have answers.
That experience taught me one thing I couldn't have learned any other way: no one else can be your foundation.
For the next twenty years, I practiced with my eyes open. I found a tradition that actually encouraged questions. I became an instructor. I sat with hundreds of people in meditation. And through all of it, one thing became clearer than anything else:
The answers were never outside me. The practice just helped me get quiet enough to hear what I already knew.
What I Believe
- You are the foundation. Everything else is tools.
- There's no such thing as failure—only outcomes that teach you something.
- Negative emotions are data, not enemies.
- Skepticism and spirituality aren't opposites.
- Anyone who says they have all the answers is selling something—usually themselves.
What I Don't Believe
- That you need a guru to grow.
- That "thinking positive" fixes anything.
- That spiritual practice should make you less human.
- That my way is the only way—or even the best way.
What I Write About
Most spiritual advice is designed to keep you coming back for more spiritual advice. I write about what actually helps you think clearer and live with less bullshit:
- Why most self-help fails the moment you step outside the guru's bubble
- How to test what works for your actual life, not someone else's ideal
- The difference between understanding something and knowing it through experience
Why I Write
I spent years outsourcing my thinking to teachers, systems, and people who seemed more certain than I was. Eventually I realized: the answers were never outside me. The practice just helped me get quiet enough to hear what I already knew.
I write because I couldn't find someone who'd talk about this stuff honestly—without the cosmic fluff, without the guru posturing, and without pretending they have it all figured out.
These are my notes. Take what's useful. Leave what isn't.
And if something here helps you trust yourself a little more—or question a little deeper—that's the whole point.
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Last updated: January 2026